This might most probably end up being a 'LOL' kind of entry .

So .. Continue raeding if you want to ! :D

Or you could stop here .

I feel wierd & i've got many many thoughts today .

While facing a piece of drawing paper , holding a pencil on my hand ,

I thought about myself and discovered many problems .

( That's not suppose to be the way la , i planned to draw . )

When it comes to love , i think i am selfish .

I want everything which i can get , from you .

I want everything , & i want you all to myself .

( & I realised it's because of that , you tend to get really impatient with me ,

& thus the both of us have emotion changes . )

Not that i expect you to be by my side for 24/7 all day long la .

& it's not necessary for you to be by my side anyway (:

I just hope that you'd always be there to keep me entertained ,

Whenever possible .

And you'd always be there to listen to my rants , cheer me up :D

( Ya right , who'd sit with me 24/7/365? Its so boring , its so 'no life' ! Agreed ? )

Sometimes , i dont care whether you're bored or not .

( Because i'm really stubborn ! )

But i really wish we could have good chats like before (:

It's not hard to get it done , please ?

( I mean , if you feel for me , you won't mind spending a little time on me , right ? )

I want someone who'd never leave me , EVER .

Like someone who'd accept me for who i am , a really really bland and boring person .

( I know that's like , impossible -.-)

Someone who'd accept me for my ugliness and stuff .

Or even better, find beauty in every single thing i have , like ... My face xD

Someone who thinks that i'm not bland & not boring at all .

I dont know it is the pride barriel or something , it just gets in the way .

Or maybe i'm shy(?) or im afraid of awkwardness or something .

I dont know , i think i make myself sound weird .

And that's why i DONT REALLY like to initiate online conversations .

( To you , i just can't stop myself but to be the ice-breaker . )

Same applies for sms .

But sometimes , i want you to talk to me .

So much , so much . But i dont say it out .

And thats why i'm good at waiting . So good that i can wait without complaining .

I wait for things to happen , like , for my phone to vibrate ,

I'm waiting for you to initiate the conversation of the day .

I know the day surely come . It's just that i do not know when .

I want so much , but i'm afraid to ask . I think i'm really wierd .

I spend alot of my time wondering what happened ,

What have i done that things changed ,

I hope that it's not too late . I want to 'repair' this .

But actually , when i think about it , i had you .

( I'm so selfish to want to have you all by myself that i caused you to get tired with me .)

See ? I'm not a nice person .

But come to think about it , i dont deserve to get what i want .

I'm sorry , and i hope it's never too late to start over again (:

I shall wait for miracle to happen .

I ♥ you , yes i really do :D

I just dare not say this out , to you .

Poof , i've finally let down the stone in my heart :D

I spend the time , the effort to type all the entries out word by word ,

Letter by letter . Please respect me , my words , my entry , my blog .

Those who copy my entries , are just like duplicating my emotions and feeling ,

Into themselves , their entires and their blog .

Go on , find a way which suits you in terms of expressing your emotions (:

Thanks alot :D

I know i'm not that 'great' in the sense of being able to fulfil everything .

But atleast , i'm learning :D

I may be bland , normal and perhaps not even up to average ?

& Although my life's a horrible , unlucky and boring drama .

At times , i still have to be grateful that im actually also wonderfully blessed in other areas ,

Which some people out there , may not be able to get .

And that i have got you !

* Inserts a big , all smile picture of YOU here ! :D *

I'd like to replay the period of time when we just got to know each other ,

Starting to know more , started killing time at a super-ultra wierd place ,

And when we just started being together :D

Those time were so real yet unbelievable .

Sometimes i wish i could replay everything whenever i want .

Because i want to re-enjoy every single thing all over again .

It's really interesting about how 2 strangers could end up being so close to each other .

Those time will continuously be flashing in my mind .

Till memory fails me ♥

Things are just like depending on the other party so much , so much .
That we don't even know we can't get used to not talking to each other for even one day . Sometimes , this dependency on the other

Gets so strong it becomes a form of attraction .

Maybe we're just like that :D

机会是自己争取来的。。

现在我必须学会怎么样去珍惜它 :D

祝我好运，哈哈！

爱你们哦，晚安 :D

Have i shared this picture with you people before ?

It looks like my teddy's back view ! ^^

Ahem , thanks ! For opening my eyes .

Tonight's gonna be a good good night ! <3

HEARTS ALL OVER THE WORLD TONIGHT :D

<3 ~

Sweet dreams ! :D

That's Linda in blue .

She's extremely nice . But the only thing which most people couldn't take it about her ,

Is that she really talks alot , alot !
I don't know whats with her whenever she talks to me .

She'll always be crying while having heart-to-heart talks with me .

Perhaps thats the power of me xD

I almost cried just now while forcing them down my throat .

Almost , really .

Even though i was given sugar , which is something sweet ,

It was still really , really , really bitter ,

Still .

It seemed to be worst today than yesterday .

Woke up at 4am just to vomit twice .

I am not recovering at all !

Can't help feeling weak watching mummy cleaning up the mess i've made .

I'm sorry ...

Now that flu is attacking me , suckaaaaa !

Now that i finally agree that sleeping is a waste of time .

You won't know what will happen next .

你是我认识的那个人吗？怎么会有种陌生的感觉？

是你变了吗？